I don’t know what it is…lately, I’ve been feeling kind of…uninspired. And I’m not even sure that’s the right word for this feeling.

I feel kind of like a drone. Just going through my day to day routine. Kind of in a haze. I haven’t felt like taking pictures…probably because we haven’t really been doing anything that I feel warrants pulling out the camera.

The other day as I was uploading the “day in the life” photos from my phone, I scrolled through some others. And boy did it have me missing summer. Not that I’m complaining about the rain already…because I’m not. I love the rain actually. It had me missing more of the summer state of mind, if you will.

Everything seems more laid back in summer. It’s lighter later so I don’t feel that rush to get things done when I’m off of work. Andy is home all summer so I know that all the things around the house aren’t falling on me to be crammed in and taken care of on the weekend.

With fall comes a new school year. With a new school year comes late nights. There’s been nights where the clock strikes 8 and we’re still at the dinner table. Right after that it’s time to get Rylee to bed. Then after she’s in bed, I’m about ready to pass out because I’m so exhausted so all we do is sit on the couch and watch TV. The first couple of months of the school year are always a little rough on our family.  I fully realize we do this to ourselves because eating together, at the table, as a family is so important to us, but…I miss my husband.

My work is picking up…it’s always some level of crazy but the 90 days before a product launch is always a special kind of crazy. Then throw in the fact that close to half my time is spent doing work for another job, in addition to my own, and it gets kind of overwhelming.

A more hectic schedule means a more frazzled mama and a toddler who pushes the boundaries more. And I don’t know about you, but it seems like within 5 minutes of the best part of my day {picking up Rylee and seeing her sweet smile and getting a big hug} the struggles start. What is it about that “happy hour”? I find myself constantly checking my phone to see if Andy has called to tell me he’s on his way home, then counting down the minutes until he will walk in the door and make it all better.

I don’t like feeling like this.

I guess a better word to describe all of this is overwhelmed. I’m kind of overwhelmed by life right now.

This weekend we have some fun family plans. We’re headed to our little town’s open house at the fire station then to a family friend’s birthday party. After that, we have no plans for the afternoon and I fully intend to keep it that way. Maybe we’ll go outside and pick apples off of our tree. Maybe we’ll start to decorate for Halloween. Then on Sunday Rylee and I are going to visit with my cousin who, even though she only lives across town, we rarely see. I’m really looking forward to that visit. She always puts a smile on my face. And gives good hugs. I need a good hug.

Wow…that all sounds like a big sob story. Sorry about that. Bottom line is this…it’s life. Sometimes it sucks, but I’ve got a family that loves me and a hardworking husband and a job that I love. I am blessed beyond belief. I need to remember to be thankful for my blessings…it is after all Rule #2.

And because they make me smile, here’s some of those summertime photos I was referring to…

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